The whole thing overall was very intense, and he’s a very intense person, so the combination of both…I kind of blacked out, in a way. I think I had a panic attack. When we sat down, it was even more intense for me because I was like, “Oh God, what do we talk about? We just talked for 10 days.”
He kind of came off a little more intense and wasn’t picking up that I was really nervous. I just kept saying, “Oh, this is so weird. This is so weird.” When I got out of there, I was incredibly overwhelmed, and I was like, I gotta go, I gotta go. I genuinely regret that. He deserves better.
Was there anything about him, specifically, that threw you off in that moment beyond your own internal battle?
It was not about his looks. That’s so black and white. I’m not like that. I think it was the intensity. Through a wall, you obviously don’t get that as much. I knew he was theatrical, but then just putting it all together, it was a lot in that moment. We had just gotten engaged and gone through this incredible connection, but the physical was not matching up to me in that moment. It kind of freaked me out. There’s no other way to explain it.
When he said the guys called him Kennedy, and you say, “You’re more Romney.” What did that mean?
He kind of looks like he would be like one of the Romney sons. I thought it was cocky when he said that, and I thought he could maybe be taken down a notch. I was like, “Who says that? And then brings it up again?” Like, of course, I had heard that. Like, I knew.
Watching [everything] back, I was like, “Oh my God, this guy thinks he’s like so attractive, calling himself Jude Law.” I kind of want to talk about me a little bit. What do you think about me? He said all these really nice things in his interview. Like, “Oh, she’s everything I could have imagined.” But I wanted to hear that, especially after a proposal that wasn’t that romantic. I was like, maybe this is the moment that I will get this romantic thing, and it will be about me. And it really wasn’t about me, and that also threw me off. Like, “Oh my God, this is not my person.”
